Jag föreställer mig alltid att saker är bättre än vad de egentligen är. Jag kan leva i någon slags eufori, och totalt ignorera det som är dåligt. Jag tycker det är enkelt att bara leva i nuet. Men jag kan inte fortsätta så här, för det slutar alltid med att jag känner mig dumförklarad, blåögd, naiv.

Exempelvis kan jag älska människor på ett annorlunda sätt än vad de gör mig. Jag skulle göra vad som helst för dem, tycker de är det bästa i världen... För jag ser helt enkelt inte på hur det skulle kunna vara, om det inte vore på det här sättet.

kanske jag är blåögd, men ja trodd faktiskt att det betydde mera..

Snart blir jag student!! Hihihi. :) Har skaffat klänningen redan, men behöver en studentmössa, nya bhn utan axelband, kavaj och skor. Har ett par backup-skor men helst skulle jag vilja ha ett par verkligt snygga som står ut lite, då min klänning är ganska enkel.

Tror denna sommar kommer bli världens bästa.

(peppar,peppar)

I wrote in a long time ago, back when I had my heart torn to pieces by someone who I thought was going to be there for much longer than he was. It was a depressing entry, one full of sadness and heartbreak. I can remember exactly how I felt as I poured out my soul to an anonymous blog.

Funny how things change in time. Looking back I really should of listened to everyone's advice of how time heals all wounds. It seemed easier to just be cynical and want to be left alone in my pain.

Imagine my surprise when one day that pain slowly started to go away. Like a wound fading into a scar, my sad self slowly started to fade and I became me again. I was finally letting myself be happy.

Than he happened.
This plain ordinary boy suddenly became extraordinary.
He started to give me all those feelings I thought I'd never feel again and eventually my fragile heart fell in love with him.

He is honestly the best thing to ever happen to me. Being with him is like every amazing feeling I've ever felt rolled into one.

I'm happy, so freaking happy.

There is something else I am which is hard to admit though. I am so scared. Scared of hurting again. My broken heart fell in love and healed itself around him. I broke so easy last time I don't know if I could survive losing this one.

Wonderboy I love you. So much more than anything else in this entire world. I just wanted you to know, you saved me.

She doesn't love you like I do
She doesn't have my name
However she tries to act like it
She'll never be the same

But she's new and she's beautiful
You've never been in a fight
Yeah it's awfully perfect now
But you just know deep inside

Does she make you feel wanted like I did
Make you feel like you're the one thing that matters
You let her head rest on your chest
But when you close your eyes

You'll be seeing my face again
I'll be crossing your mind
You'll be dreaming on places we went
And then you'll wake up to find

That she's not me